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Thursday, August 10, 2023

On The Road With Al And Ivy: A Literary Homeless Chronicle - Aug. 10, 2023



Update: On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Anthology Vol. 1 (2016-2018). Work on the revised Second Edition due out in 2024 and upcoming excerpts on X in my X (aka Twitter) Subscription Section. 

When On The Road With Al & Ivy Vol 1 was published, it was made clear that it was a compilation of Blog entries that were sometimes written weeks apart. 

In other words, it was a collection of writings during the period that showed my state of mind and what I saw but wasn't a chronological narrative.

I did say that the second edition would incorporate other written entries from social media and GoFundMe entries, which would fill in the gaps between the blog entries and provide a sense of what daily life was like for a homeless person. That took a while to collect.

I began work on the newly revised eBook last month but have decided that it would be interesting and fun to do it as Kindle Vella style in episodes in the X Subscriber Section. Some of the first completed pieces will be run on my regular X timeline for free.

One reason is that there are different ways to incorporate the additional material, and I'd like to try a format that combines the original text with commentary. I hadn't intended to add the latter but reader comments for the current eBook show that continuity is a concern, and after reflection, I've realized that they're right.

The format will be simple; the original text with the date and then commentary to add details and context. If it relates to a blog entry in the eBook, I'll add the reference to look it up on KU.

These pieces, which will be in the revised eBook, will have the working title of On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Journal Entries, and I'll use the current book cover as the attached pic.

That might seem like a lot of preliminary detail, but I've set my subscription timeline to show a preview of each item. Having descriptive and standard titles lets those checking out these entries better understand what's there.

The first couple of entries are below with cropped images of the social media entries which should be interesting reading with the commentary.

I think it is relevant also, as the homeless problem seems to have gotten worse, not better, and the discussion in the media has moved more towards depicting people experiencing homelessness as a single entity or headline. 

My book was intended to be "a face," and I think adding detail will make it more so. The body of data could use more "ordinary" stories to give the problem a more human face.

There's a lot of homeless struggling to survive, not just waiting around for help or taking drugs, and while not entirely overlooked, most of the attention is on the media images.

The eBook is still on KU and can be read for free by members. I'll try to schedule a free week soon, also.

- Al Handa
X: @alhanda (Boogie Underground Media)




On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Journal Entries (2016-2018)





Introduction:

The Journal Entries begin on June 25, 2016. The format will have the actual post as an attachment, and each will have commentary for extra detail and context. The title and book cover used are for this series. The cover will actually be a new design when it officially comes out as the Second Edition.

The posts were on Facebook or GoFundMe, but I've removed the headings. Each has the date in large red text so I could recognize each image in the various apps used To edit. There’ll be some redacting in future posts for legal reasons.

The first entry is short and almost innocuous because I was in shock and reluctant to talk about my situation. 

I became homeless in March, and the money had run out after a few months. A lot of things had happened, and by this date was suffering occasional hallucinations from sleep deprivation, so I was cautious in tone and trying not to come off as unhinged or panicked in my post.

The car had just died the night before, and the best advice I got from the other homeless was that replacing it was a good thing to try first since it used an electronic key. 

The reference to "3.7 miles" was the walking distance to the Cadillac dealership, and my statement about walking two miles a day wasn't about simply wanting to stay in shape. My prescription for high blood pressure meds had run out a month earlier, and the only thing I could think of to replace it in the short term was to exercise every day. 

I had to carry Ivy for most of the two-mile distance because the average temperature in that area was 90 degrees. She couldn't walk further than a hundred yards in that heat. It was hard carrying a twelve-pound dog and backpack, but I figured the more strenuous the workout, the better.

The reference to UB40, specifically the one led by Ali Campbell, is because the admins of their fan site saw my posts and urged fans to support me. Also, my thanks to Twitter (and Facebook) users were because they, many of whom still follow my account, were helping the best they could.

Without that support, I'm unsure how things would have gone two weeks after my situation became critical. By the time of the first blog entry (in the eBook) on July 30, I was stuck on a side street with a dead car.

On June 25, I had a car that had just stopped running, and I didn't know if the problem was severe. After observing the homeless scene for a few months, I knew my situation would worsen without a running car, which it did by the next post on June 30.

- Al Handa 

Note: These entries are working up towards the first chapter in the eBook "On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Anthology Vol. 1 (2016-2018) on Kindle Unlimited," which begins on July 30, 2016. I'll run at least three before the series moves into the Subscription section. Also, some of the incidents I’m describing are alluded to in the novel version on Kindle Vella.


On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Journal Entries (2016-2018): June 30, 2016 (2nd of 3)

Note: These pieces are part of the Second Edition of "On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Anthology Vol. 1 (2016-2018)," due in 2024, and are published here under the working title of The Journal Entries. There's a complete explanation of the project in an early posting.



Intro to June 30 Entry:

This is the second installment of three that'll be published on this timeline. After the third, the series will continue in the Subscription section.

The Entry is an attached image file like before. What follows here is my commentary.

June 30 was a good day with some hope. I was hired for a job on the night shift, which made it possible to safely leave Ivy alone in the car (with other homeless in vehicles keeping an eye on her). I thought that it was a good first step, and it was.

Note: I've redacted the business name and will do it on any word or term that would identify it or the exact location of these incidents.

I didn't realize that several other homeless around me already worked in retail, some for years, and didn't earn enough to get into an apartment because of the low vacancy rate and the real estate boom in this region. 

Even more importantly, I didn't realize that even if the Night Manager knew I was homeless, that didn't mean upper management would treat me differently.

What I found out later was almost all of the others who worked had to keep their situation a secret. Many had been fired from previous jobs as soon as it became known or soon after. The usual perception is that many companies are eager to hire people experiencing homelessness. It's more complicated than that.

I would soon find out that the official company policy of being accepting of people without housing didn't mean much to the upper management of this business, but that will be covered in later Journal entries.

The last sentence was the actual situation; buying a new key didn't work. That meant that the problem could be the electronic ignition, which, even on an old Cadillac, was costly to replace.

The Entry was short because the car wasn't running. There was no way to recharge the old iPhone used to type out these entries (my phone was smaller and only turned on if I needed to make a call). Donations had come in, but other than some food for Ivy and me, I didn't dare spend it because there was a future repair bill that would possibly be a lot more than I had at the time.

However, on this day, getting any job was good news. The effect of even a little hope couldn't be underestimated. It was devastating when things completely fell apart over the following two weeks, but hope kept me mentally strong enough not to give up because of days like this, I could tell myself that wins were still possible.

That doesn't mean there was a Hollywood-style scene where I stood up and shouted to the Heavens that the fight wasn't over yet. By the following Journal entry in July, it was evident that I was in profound trouble.

- Al Handa
   August 4, 2023

On The Road With Al & Ivy Short Take: Great Chapters In Literature: Marcel Proust's Overture from "Swann's Way."

If you want an example of a writer that A.I. would find nearly impossible to duplicate, it would be Marcel Proust. The first chapter feels like he drew random thoughts or subjects out of a hat and then wrote a chapter that connected those in an interesting stream of consciousness that, as rambling as it might seem, gives the reader a clear sense of his personality. 

The opening "Overture" walks a thin line between flightiness and nailing the feat of putting on paper the moment-to-moment images and thoughts of a human mind.

Most psychological novels are highly structured, with well-constructed observations that are insightful, but it's not how the mind works as one's senses move from one stimulus to the next. Literature can be the product of input and reactions laid out and organized with reflection, observations, and context added later in the first written draft. 

That doesn't mean Proust didn't add reflective passages or philosophical observations to his book; it's just that he didn't write the chapter as a structured piece like Joyce's "Ulysses" (which was a different type of work even if both were psychological).

A man who sees a woman walk by isn't necessarily going to contemplate the complexities of the species' survival. He might add a meditative passage later in a WIP that adds detail to that brief glimpse, but that's not how our minds work in real-time.

My first reaction to this chapter was amazement at his imagination until I realized that it was an actual train of thought and not a virtuoso assembling of imagery. We're used to books that describe elaborate internal dialogues (which, of course, can happen in spurts in everyday life) but rarely one where the observations and thoughts are genuinely unfiltered. Proust may think differently, but his mind works pretty much like anyone else's.

His best quality, besides genius, is honesty. By that, I don't mean it's full of juicy confessions but that he's willing to be quite ordinary, following a path that includes the trivial and banal. As a result, the passages seem to have more life and vivacity, which is also a credit to the translator, C. K. Scott Moncrie.

It was very much a chapter written by a human being.

- Al HANDA

On The Road With Al & Ivy Mini-Blog: Thoughts about A.I. generated books.

I was reading an article about the flood of A.I.-generated books on Amazon K.U. and how those are reducing the KNEP payout for legitimate authors. One writer quoted an "expert" who said authors would leave in droves unless Amazon handles the situation.

No, they won't leave in droves.

Kindle Unlimited is an ecosystem that too many writers depend on for income and, just as important, the opportunity to get published works in front of an established audience. 

Until somebody comes along and gives authors the same market and access, K.U. is it, and it's better to root for Amazon to try to fix an unprecedented situation than just get all butt hurt and threaten to leave.

In my eyes, these stories are just part of the obsessive hype about A.I. which ignores the real issues that could kill off K.U. and make people leave; rampant piracy and plagiarism.

A.I.-generated books are, at least at the moment,  an automated form of plagiarism by people who would otherwise steal by other methods. Even the writers claiming it's just an experiment or exploring the new tech know that the algorithm gets its material by scraping published work. 

Those who claim it's just a new technology like the printing press aren't real artists. The printing press revolutionized distribution like the internet has, but you still had to compose a work.

There is a place for A.I. in writing, particularly in genres like nonfiction articles or news, where recycling and borrowing is standard practice. I've seen the same Beatles or Led Zeppelin articles for decades.

Also, news organizations specializing in quickly whipping up pieces on trending people and events will embrace A.I. if they haven't already. There'll be the problem of the tech being used to generate a flood of articles to manipulate trends, but that's only a concern for those who are discerning about their clickbait reading.

One thing that might eventually happen; A.I. bots will be required to generate a bibliography on any nonfiction work.

As far as novelists are concerned, A.I. will initially rip a lot of people off. The fact that Amazon can't control it isn't necessarily due to a lack of caring but because of the overwhelming number of people using bots to create instant books.

The problem of A.I. books will be an ongoing battle. Just right now, technology has shifted the balance of those manipulating the system. That won't last forever, though.

However, as long as society tolerates cheating and winning at all costs, the best that can be achieved is a reasonable level of deterrence.

I must add A.I. tech is being pushed downwards, not up. In other words, even the conflict between content providers and A.I. firms isn't about the individual contributors who often work for free. It's a fight between management teams who may not care if A.I. replaces people. 

There is nuance. A.I. will be like most tech innovations; people won't have much choice. It'll become a fact of life, so areas will evolve where it's an accepted tool. Since users won't have any sense of history, somebody will eventually publish a work that plagiarizes someone famous or who has the means to sue, which'll help move copyright law into the next era. Lawsuits probably create more change than legislators.

An author putting out an A.I. generated book might make money on it but will have to become a shadowy figure constantly changing identities to evade TOS enforcement.

I can't imagine a real writer would want that kind of literary career. For sure, some won't care as long as they make money, and in the United States, there'll be those who admire such unprincipled behavior.

Even a hundred years from now, a person who uses A I. to generate a whole book isn't going to be called an artist or writer. That title is still going to mean something even then.

On The Road With Al & Ivy: Excerpt from August 2020.

Note: I've begun editing a Vol. 2 of the Blog Compilation. This one will contain edited and revised versions of all of the literary essays on this blog site from around 2020 to the present. Here's a revised and edited intro to one about childhood.

Childhood is seen as a time of innocence, but kids often spend it lying, cheating, stealing, and inflicting pain on each other; while parents do their best to contain such impulses until adulthood when there's a time and place for everything. 

It's a time for learning about your place in the world. Look at any toy section, and it's evident that sexual roles are defined early on, and as our perception of the world becomes more mature, we realize the world seems to teach ideals and symbols but not reality. Living happily ever after becomes women doing the cooking on Super Bowl Sunday and men getting to fart anytime they want (which is oversimplifying for the sake of pacing, but within the minimum standard for truth on the Internet).

A child's world, created from curiosity and imagination, is often seen as a transitional phase before assuming the adult mantles of responsibility, conformity, and money-grubbing. Luckily, the grown-up world also teaches ambiguity and hypocrisy to help reconcile virtue and the real world.

If your sense of curiosity survives into adulthood, it becomes a search for truth, and any subsequent disillusionment is just a temporary phase in the discovery process. 

Studying history is the passion that guided my life's journey, from the shiny symbols of childhood to real life, from sacred truths to ambiguity.

It's not easy for children to conceptualize the idea of the past, which is filtered by adults deciding what's suitable for young minds. They avoid violent or erotic content (except in video games and cable TV) or explaining which political party is associated with Satan. Such matters are considered too advanced, so instead, we're taught about stuff like dinosaurs, a politically neutral subject that doesn't need to be taught with any accuracy.

That's as far as it went until I could at least read a comic book, which by fate was the old Classics Illustrated series, which transitioned my love of history into the world of literature, albeit with a lot of pictures and very little text.

The first inspirational book was Church's version of Homer for children. I checked it out so often from the school library that the librarian hid it to ensure others could enjoy it until she realized I was the only kid who read it.

I didn't check it out so often because the book was so good, but because, at first, I couldn't understand it. It was above my reading level. It was a process of enjoying the illustrations at first, then gradually being able to read them later. I realized that illiteracy locked the door to this exciting world, so improving my reading skills became a priority. 

I was eventually able to read three or four grades above my level. I could have cared less about it (as an achievement) except that it finally made old historical classics available to me and, with it, a fuller view of the world.

August 2020 Entry
ontheroadwithalandivy.blogspot.com/2020/08/on-roa…


On The Road With Al & Ivy Mini Blog: Announcing The New Subscription Section on X

I'm happy to announce that the Subscriber Timeline on X is now running. As promised in the earlier announcement, I won't constantly pester everyone to buy a subscription, but a description is necessary.

The rate is set at .99 cents a month, which is paid through the Google Play store and Apple. The nice thing is that you can buy a monthly subscription or, if you like the content, stay on as a regular subscriber. It's up to you.

I hope and will deeply appreciate it if X users try it for at least a month or two and see if it's worth staying on. 

What delayed everything was I couldn't see what the Subscriber TL looked like until it was approved. Once I saw it, it was like the regular free stream of tweets in chronological order. Thinking about how the premium content could be loaded took a little time.

Rather than load all the material in at once, I've decided to tweet it at regular intervals with standard headings so it's obvious which are blog tweets and other stuff like the serial fiction. I intend to load new content at least five days a week.

As of now, it's mainly two features; the edited essays that will be in a future eBook "On The Road With Al & Ivy: The Literary Essays (2018-2020), and around four of my current Kindle Vella books, which can be published elsewhere as long as it's not free. The monthly fee makes it premium.

By August, there'll also be audio and video features loaded.

The Literary Essays will be from the Blog entries during the two years of 2018-2020. The original format was like a magazine, but such issues won't work as chapters like the current eBook On The Road With Al & Ivy Vol. 1. 

The Blog became eclectic, so it'll be more readable as discreet pieces and not huge 4500-word essays. Each entry has a clear title and description of the topic(s) covered.

The Vella Serial book chapters will be loaded regularly until each is complete. One reason for including these is that most who read the chapters preferred it not to be in Vella, and secondly, these stories were only available in the U.S. 

The latter is a big deal as some of my oldest Twitter friends are from overseas, and it was frustrating that they couldn't read my serials.

The initial serials will be "I, Ivy," "Queen Khleopahtra," and "Knee Deep In Glory" (which will be loaded best chapters first as it's not chronological).

I picked the three that were the least linear and were written in such a way that one could read the episodes out of order, like a regular situation comedy or cartoon.

I'll add more next month, but some of the serials will be taken off Vella and published for free in the regular Twitter timeline. Ones like "The Lost Gospels Of Murgahtroyd" and "Boogie Underground Think-Tank" were formerly regular blog features, so they are being made free again.

I'll post regular updates on what's being loaded into the subscription section, so if you don't subscribe now, maybe something will come up that'll make it worth trying it out.

I'm sure you've all seen how richer the content on my account has become after moving the On The Road With Al & Ivy blog here. That won't change. I want this account to be one everyone wants to follow and enjoy.

The Subscriber Section is an enhancement but also an attempt to make this feature-laden account sustainable, so I hope you'll try it.

Even if you don't, I'll appreciate all support via retweets and word of mouth.













Tuesday, July 5, 2022

On The RoadWith Al And Ivy: A Literary Homeless Chronicle - July 2022



“The first bombardment showed us our mistake, and under it, the world as they had taught it to us broke in pieces."


- Erich Maria Remarque (All Quiet On The Western Front, Trans. from the German by A. W. Wheen)


One of the first things a child learns is that there are mysteries and elders who illuminate those are guides whose wisdom is unchallenged until the budding adult realizes that humans are moony phlegmatics who often make stuff up.


The Ancient races were terrified whenever the sky turned black until they could calculate when eclipses would occur, accompanied by rites and sacrifices. Thanks to the Priests, no one ever died from an eclipse.


Astronomy eventually became common knowledge and a source of wonder rather than fear. That didn't end the power of priests, who just found new mysteries.


...proof is in the pudding...


That's why astronomy can be common knowledge, yet people will still send money to Nigerian Princes or believe that the earth is flat.


Professor Ivy's controversial 1987 book, "Food Bowls Are Righteous," asserts that if the world was round then dog bowls would constantly slide downhill.


This writer is unable to formulate an intelligent rebuttal to that penetrating observation.


...it isn't enough to know...


It isn't enough to know. If the data doesn't solve the problem, allay a fear, or confirm what the person believes, then it has little power or validity. The notion that somebody wants to give out free gold can be more compelling than knowing that Black Holes are dying stars. 


It's more complex than that, of course, as most people know that there's lots of reasons and dynamics in play, and not everyone can be as smart as they are. 


We grant the point and move on...


Now that I've established that truth and knowledge aren't absolutes, there's a historical event I'd like to discuss.


...armchair generals and similar types of priests...


The first armchair general was documented in 456,7892 B.C. when a Thessalonian Chieftain decided it was safer to have a high-ranking Satrap lead the Army into battle instead of him. 


The new General was subject to micromanaging by the inviolate monarch, which included postgame analysis by warrior commentators who couldn't make it to the battle or were on the injured list.


It was known as "ˌbaksēt ˈdrīvər" which has no English equivalent but roughly translates to "Telling the chariot driver how to steer the horses."


The modern archetype was first described in pictures on a clay pickle jar in 567,8910 B.C. when fierce warriors in the region now known as Chicago staged a mock battle to celebrate the glorious victory of the Bears over the Red Sox in the Peloponnesian War. 


The ASCII illustrations on the jar show several men standing off to one side, critiquing the tactics used by the two tribal generals and expressing dismay that the armor used by the warriors wasn't period correct.


Noted War Expert and dog food blogger Professor Ivy of Shitzu U translated the passage in 1967, which reads:


"Notede camp gamæ critic atticuſ mcdougal gavæ th' mock c'mbaÞ onlī 2 stars, nōn-ọ̄ther sin th' armor ophe th' warriorſ waſ from th' sinnen perioede a'd th' explosionſ weræ obviouslī fakæ."


Other Armchair Generals added more clarity on the Rotten Rutabaga site:


"Marcis Ohreally is miscast as the gentle, sensitive commander who was forced to execute 800 of his men for dress code violations and flinching when the arrows showered down upon their heads."


Professor Ivy also noted in her translation, "Sometimes it's necessary for those who haven't seen combat to define martial values like courage and sacrifice as most soldiers are too preoccupied with their survival to delve into ethereal concepts of war."


...tribal chiefs...


That original Tribal Chief found that when a general was killed, there were plenty of others eager to take his place. This allowed him to concentrate on essential duties of state and a harem of 1,234 wives.


The brave Chief suffered a heart attack at around the 500th wife but luckily, there were 23 male heirs. After 22 died suddenly, the 23rd, a spry young man named Hoosier Acropolis assumed the throne.


His first task was to start a war, of course, so he summoned the latest general to give him the order.


The problem was Hoosier had no idea who to invade or how. Luckily, the General who was named Trojan Horace said it would be taken care of and all the Chieftain had to do was equip the Army, and he'd take of the rest.


Hoosier looked at the bill and wondered why the toilet seats cost 50 gold pieces each. Also, the new chariots that fired machine gun arrows weren't operational due to problems with the high-tech wheels that used innovative square geometry that would prevent cowards from retreating.


He decided that war must be like predicting eclipses and appointed a priest to handle the mysterious art, and went back to the vital task of creating a male heir with his harem of 646 wives.


...the original Pentagon...


The War Priest's first task was to commission a series of bronze tablets inscribed with stirring tales of the young Chieftain's courage in battle and prowess in bed, having reached wife number 323 before his untimely death from a hernia and dehydration.


This work, known as "The Bayou Tapestry" is considered the first published novel because nothing in it was true, though it's become a valued reference work on many Internet history web sites.


...now about modern warfare literature...


War literature is generally one of two types; Tales of great warriors and leaders that tend to be pro-management in sentiment or anti-war tracts written mainly by war veterans (or those who empathize with them).


That and movies. There are ultra-bloody and gory "war is hell" films that portray leaders as egotistical cretins who waste people's lives and live in luxury. Such celluloid tales won't be discussed in this blog because it isn't clear if Hollywood is talking about the Pentagon or studio heads and producers.


Please note that I've oversimplified for brevity and to meet the exacting standards of accuracy required for Internet commentary, which has a plus-minus rate of error of 50%.




...sides of the same coin...


Two classic works provide compelling views of both sides; Sun Tzu's "Art Of War" and "All Quiet On The Western Front" by Erich Maria Remarque.


Sun Tzu's manual was written sometime before 500 B.C., and like Homer, it's not clear if he was an actual person. The first English translation was in 1910 and was probably a cult item amongst Military types until it became a popular primer on leadership in business and other fields that purport to have leaders.


It isn't a pro-war book in the classic sense but some of it's popularity can be attributed to what could be called the "Cult Of Leadership," or the idea that a leader is responsible for the success of an army or organization.


An old war movie with this sensibility (like from the 40s or 50s) would depict an army or group of soldiers transformed into an enthusiastic bunch by a charismatic leader (generally a handsome alpha male) who also comes up with a clever trick that baffles the enemy and sends them running for home or to meet their maker.


More recent movies (with some exceptions) take it a step further and make it seem like battles are won by rock star warriors who break the rules, have guns that never run out of ammo, and please some of the males in the audience by bringing female officers down a peg or two.


That might be true for elite units that perform special missions, but after all the brilliant strategy and planning in World War 2, for example, Omaha Beach was stormed by regular guys just doing their duty and doing most of the dying.


...discussion groups...


Most amateur historians and war buffs will discuss strategy and tactics and critique the leadership.


Which is important; leadership is an indispensable element but like with analytics in Pro Sports, it's easy to talk theory and probabilities because that's what the ordinary person can see. Books like The Art Of War give readers a picture that's easier to grasp. 


Which is good. Even though the Military History genre has its share of jingo's, tech geeks, and war porn addicts, it's also produced valuable anti-war literature and a sub-genre of what could be called realistic war studies.


There's one book in the latter category that comes to mind, "The Face Of Battle" by John Keegan.


Keegan's book studied three battles that occurred in the same area of Flanders in France; Agincourt, Waterloo and Somme Offensive.


The book was a then groundbreaking study that examined what really happens during a battle. That is to say, what men actually did as opposed to the more poetic descriptions like "the men charged forward in an irresistible wave that carried all before them."


Keegan's book describes accounts by soldiers about men being issued gin or rum before battle, so they fought drunk, cavalry that avoided mixing it up and riding in opposite directions, Military Police behind the lines to catch deserters and shirkers, sergeants carrying spears in the gunpowder to push the line of soldiers forward if they faltered and many other fascinating facts.


The question that Keegan examined the closest was what made men fight when the battlefield was so terrifying.


...the common factor...


The most common reason highlighted in modern war movies was that men fought for each other. Which is undoubtedly true.


However, it's more complicated than that. The Face Of Battle delineates a list of factors from patriotism (professed by people at home as well as the commanders), peer pressure, threat of punishment, training to bypass the fear reflex, and tactics that place soldiers in situations that trigger the survival instinct or rescue comrades.


Those aren't factors that John Keegan made up. The book "All Quiet On The Western Front," written in 1929 by a war veteran, pretty much says the same thing (more on that later).


...how to make war...


James Dunnigan's 1983 "How To Make War" was a similar book for the World War 3 High Tech era. Unlike commentary that assumes weapons work as advertised, he took a hard look at the actual stats. He created a survey of modern armies and their hardware that differentiated between what people think a weapon will do and what it actually does.


It may seem vulgar or less important than a football betting line to have a working knowledge of military hardware. You might not be fooled into buying the Brooklyn Bridge for not knowing, but someone will sell you (the taxpayer) a destroyer that cost billions and couldn't use the main gun because the shells cost 800,000 each.


Such books are about the less sexy subject of logistics. It's more appealing to discuss strategy on the intellectual level or talk about warriors who lust for battle and kick butt a la Braveheart.


...anti-war novels...


It's not a coincidence that veterans often write anti-war novels. They see a different picture than the general public does.


In a key passage in Remarque's remarkable work, the main character Paul ruminates on how he ended up on the Western Front, and all of the factors that Keegan later wrote about are present. The sense of duty remains, but all of the glamor is gone.


...back to the movies...


Movies often focus on gore as it's an entertainment medium and serious anti-war films rarely sell tickets. The ones that do well focus on soldiers doing a dirty job that has to be done, complaints about management, and the glory of sacrifice.


The elephant in the room is the morality of war, and the usual plot device is to talk about the horror and futility but ignore the most obvious solution of refusing to do it (which happened a lot throughout history). 


There have been instances of large-scale mutiny. In World War One, a large part of the French Army went on strike after yet another battle that became a bloodbath. They didn't quit or desert but made it clear that there'd be no more offensives until changes were made.


The leaders were arrested (and some executed) but the French Leadership did appoint a new commander who promised that there would be no more wasteful attacks. This incident was, of course, kept secret from the Germans who would certainly would gone all out demanded terms had they known.


...Tet Offensive...


The French civilians didn't know either, having been fed a steady diet of victory news and takes of courageous feats. If they'd known, it would have probably created as big an outcry as the American public did during the Tet Offensive during the Vietnam War.


Although war buffs describe that situation as the American public (particularly Walter Cronkite) not seeing that it was a tactical victory for the American Army, it shows what happens when the Pentagon (and Intelligence agencies) gets called on B.S.


There are practical reasons for wartime leaders to keep secrets, of course, and a good example of what happens when the people and Army publicly lose faith in their leaders is the Russian Revolution. People generally think a bunch of Socialists just took over the country, but it was preceded by the complete collapse of the Army and surrender to the Germans.


...but it is complicated...


And to be fair, one does have to acknowledge that war is a complicated issue, and once the soldiers are committed, it's generally too late to start pondering the necessity or morality.


...in the trenches...


As Paul in the book All Quiet On The Western Front realized, in the trenches, there was little he could do about it except try to survive.


The Sun Tzu book doesn't help one understand war because any book of axioms gives the impression that there's a formula for victory. That effect is more pronounced in modern times because leaders no longer lead their men into battle (as opposed to Civil War Generals who died at twice the rate of the infantry). The further from the front, the more theoretical people get.


That's simplifying things a bit too much, but it's true. Wellington may have told his brigade commanders at the Battle Of Waterloo that they had to hold even if the cannon fire was devastating, but he did understand what the order meant because they were all under fire.


Most battle plans are conceived by rare geniuses or the more numerous average, mediocre or incompetent leaders. However, after all that, men still have to slug it out, and most attacks succeed due to better training and equipment, attrition, hard fighting, and luck.


And, of course, the remarkable and admirable courage of the average soldier. Which is why one will find more truth in a book like All Quiet On The Western Front than The Art Of War.


...all quiet...


Paul found himself in a terrifying situation, with no easy answers to the questions he asked himself but he did his duty.


The author Remarque served as a soldier in W.W. 1 and was severely wounded, so his book told the truth and asked the hard questions. His story didn't answer the question of why there's war, but it helped create the anti-war genre.


If veterans from each war keep writing books that ask, perhaps one day someone will be able to give an answer that everyone will agree upon. Until then, I hope they keep asking.



ANNOUNCEMENT: On The Road With Al & Ivy, The Anthology Vol 1 (2016-2018) now live!




I've put out an ebook called "On The Road With Al & Ivy - The Anthology Vol. 1." It contains the 30 blog entries from 2016 to 2018, which cover the start and end of my homeless journey. All have been re-edited with minimal revisions and notes to ensure clarity but preserves the mood and atmosphere of that period.


The Anthology has been placed as a free ebook on Kobo (epub) and as a .99 Kindle book on Amazon (which is as low as I can set it). The Kobo version is the same as the Kindle, except it doesn't have the introduction (which is reprinted later in this blog entry).


Both versions are available now.


I'll keep the free Kobo epub live until late July which will give anybody who wants a free copy plenty of time to download it.


After that, I'm going to pull Volume 1 off Kobo and enroll it in the Kindle Unlimited program and run it as a free book there for five days when it's eligible. 


I had considered "going wide" with it but didn't want a multitude of free versions in different formats floating around in cyberspace. 


Note: Feel free to share the book with friends, etc. Please do not upload it to any book site or distributor. It would force me to issue takedown requests to clear the deck for the transition to Kindle.


...Delta Snake...


The print version of the Delta Snake Review in the 80s was free (paid subscription if you wanted to get it by mail), yet at least one record store packaged it in sealed plastic and charged for it. I'm still a little salty about that.


I doubt that'll happen with this ebook but I do want a reasonable certainty as to where it's being distributed and want it in a nice format that keeps it a respectable work of art.


I consider it an archival project, and once it's set as a K.U. Ebook, will let it ride with just basic promotional effort after the free giveaway. It makes these 30 entries available to those who want it, and it's been a valuable first experience in the ebook environment.


...volume 2...


I'm compiling the 2019-2022 blogs as volume 2. The entries after 2018 evolved into a literary magazine-style format that encompassed essays, satire, photos, and illustrations. 


I'm not adding the 80s-era jazz-blues poetry referenced in the blogs is because its going to become an illustrated collection along the lines of of William Blake's "Illuminated books," a series of hand drawn works starting in 1788. Esoteric for sure, but almost all poetry these days is a labor of love.


I'll be doing an essay on Blake's Illuminated books at some point, so the reference will make more sense, but those are available in Kindle format if you're curious (and the samples aren't tied up with long introductions that keep you from the main body of the work). 


Since those blog entries won't be unpublished, I'll be free to format the volume in discrete re-edited and revised sections though the drawings will probably be kept with the associated essays. 


The idea will be to give readers a convenient, low-cost (probably .99) anthology of "back issues" and not to replace the blog, which remains free to read in chronological order. It's not a priority project but should be out around the summer of 2023.




...I, Ivy and Vella books update...


The "I, Ivy" book on Kindle Vella will be unpublished on August 28 and there have been no new chapters loaded since the initial debut.


The reason is that I'd like it to be available to overseas readers. The "Quitters" book is mainly targeted at an American audience but my hope is that the Ivy book will appeal to a wider audience.


I'm shooting for a late September release date for a series of novella length ebooks. Each "I, Ivy" volume will be around 25,000 words and priced accordingly. 


I'm going to revise the first three chapters that are online as those are currently written for the episodic Vella environment and seem a bit too sparse for an ebook.


The Quitters book should wrap up in early August and a book two will begin in October as a Vella series. Like with the Ivy book, that volume will be novella length (though more in the 45,000 word range) and after revision, be released as a low cost Kindle ebook.


That schedule may seem tight but the Ivy book is intended to be a light work that's fun to write (and hopefully to read), and the Quitters will mainly have material added that was left out of the Vella version.  




Here's the intro to the Anthology Vol.1


INTRODUCTION TO VOLUME 1 (2016-2018)


This anthology begins from the point I became homeless, or more specifically when I admitted it. "On The Road With Al & Ivy" was supposed to be a part of my Delta Snake Review blog, which focused on music and instrument reviews. 


The idea was to make it one of many features on the site. The first few entries drew a lot of readers. The visits went from 3,000 to 75,000 in two months, most of it from Twitter users. It was never clear why but Twitter labeled the Delta Snake Review on Google's Blogspot as an unsafe site which had a chilling effect on readership. Google and Twitter were in some dispute, which might have been the reason. A Twitter friend suggested that I might have been caught in a "reply trap" in which a group of users tagged me as a spammer, which can trigger a ban. 


I posted the link from another blog site as a workaround rather than give up the Delta Snake. It was intended as a temporary measure as Twitter was the only site that flagged it. I eventually decided to spin it off as a separate entity which Twitter allowed. It took time for readers to return since most had been told it was a dangerous site. 


That means many of the early entries will seem new. I kept posting entries even though a lot of the audience had gone away, which is what any true writer will do. My original plan was to revisit the early "On The Road With Al And Ivy" entries and correct any misspelled words and that sort of thing. 


One of the first things I noticed was that the entries were no longer in chronological order. Another oddity was that passages taken out in 2017 (after deciding to write a book about that time) were all back in. The mess was bad enough that it was easier to pull those entries from the site and reissue the re-edited material as an ebook, including the previously deleted material. 


One thing I knew would happen is that the essays feel different in tone and style (than those written in the last few years). The 2016 blogs were written by a person averaging two to four hours of sleep for a couple of months and had lost access to high blood pressure and anxiety meds. I was stressed and often snarky or angry even when trying to be humorous. My emotions ranged from forced optimism to grudging acceptance of the situation. 


My writing style used conventions that one could say were influenced by Jack Kerouac, Henry Miller and Tom Wolfe. 


In retrospect, that seems to be the case. Writing a collection of thoughts, fragments, and observations is well suited to a writer whose emotional state is wildly fluctuating. It's a sketchpad with every immediate impression written down. 


As a result, the subjects can range from deeply thought-out ideas to obsessions over trivialities. 

There's a complete picture there when taken as a whole.


I was often embarrassed by my writing but resisted the temptation to correct grammar or split the long Beat-style paragraphs into "proper English" sentences. These early chapters are more topical and reflect the emotions of a person trying to understand what was going on and why. 


There are several essays in this volume that are too strident and even a bit wrong or unfair but valuable as a snapshot of a homeless person's mindset and worth keeping unchanged. It was reassuring that the material now seems remote and shows that I've been recovering from the PTSD experienced later on. It makes me grateful for the small comforts of ordinary life. 


It's not a continuous narrative. I allude to events that were documented elsewhere on social media sites but decided to keep notes and references to a minimum. It's a collection of snapshots and updates that capture a mood, and Filling the book with explanations and notes would mute the impact. 


That abruptness isn't an affectation or stylistic decision. My time sense changed out there, and life went from moment to moment rather than the passing of minutes and hours. 


For reasons explained in the book, life felt like a blur that merged events from the past and present. Each blog entry described what was on my mind at the time. I left in passages that now seem overly dramatic or even scatterbrained. It's because there's a mood that editing would mute or destroy, so I'll just trust that readers will see the intent. 


For example, there are some comments about capitalism that might anger those who view it as a faith or natural law, but the point wasn't to preach Socialism or revolution. The underlying sensibility is that there is inequity in the system and it's natural to be angry or disappointed about it. 


A lot of what I wrote came from conversations with other homeless. They all aren't in a drug stupor and why they're out there is a compelling question that's talked about a lot. 


There were some features about Ivy that were deleted but mainly because those were part of the pictorials that were left out. The essays were kept in, including her obituary. 


I still wish that I'd have been able to bring her out alive, but I didn't leave her there and made sure her remains arrived at the new home before me. That fulfilled a promise that made in 2016 and will be explained in the upcoming novel. 


These chapters are source material but contain no spoilers and are deliberately vague at times to avoid outing people. For example, I didn't identify benefactors because there were homeless at the time who'd search out names to solicit cash. 


In the forward for the novel, there'll be full thanks for my rescue. That said, I'll get out of your way and let you read this ebook but will add one final thing. 


A woman who was a homeless advocate and activist wrote me in 2016 and said that the blog made it feel like she was in the car experiencing all these things.


 I hope you feel the same way and pray that none of you will ever have to live the life this book describes. 


- Al Handa 6/23/2022


END OF BOOK EXCERPT


-Al Handa


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